Few Redeeming Qualities.........

The neglectful blogger

2010-11-13T02:34:00.002-05:00

I'm still here, kinda. i check the sight but the words stay within. i think the best of my wit, i maintain for real, meaning non-blog life. but i am not totally finished with this bloggin thing. so find me at fewredeemingqualities.tumblr.com

i shall see you there

Everest College

2010-05-12T22:09:00.000-04:00

Irony

2010-04-19T23:55:00.002-04:00

so i have been shaking my head at life, people, and situations for the last few weeks. although i have been non-blogging my mind has been consumed with many things, just a few a will share

its ironic how women treat you when you are in a relationship, its either instant repellent or an express one way trip to the lowest rung of the friend zone, or to the contrary a mixture of intrigue and magnetism.

its ironic, how i have to fight to not fall into all of the bad habits that i could easily stay far from. i even remember when i was somewhat judgemental some friends and their faults. its funny but i have a much better understanding of why and how

its ironic that i love being vague but hate when people are vague with me.

its ironic how the chick i tried to date a few years ago, who stated that she was celibate until marriage, now is a single mother. well its not that ironic, i can count at least 3 women i have met who were running that racket and all have fell far short, far short. i know two that were/are FAR from "wife material"

i find it ironic, that i talk shit about people who stray from their own explicitly stated beliefs, when i, we, all do in some way shape or fashion.

its ironic that i am inspired/turned on/drawn to whats imperfect more so than what is perfect

and its ironic how i have so many thoughts but still have little to express

Choices

2010-03-18T15:12:00.003-04:00

"Happiness is a choice". I read that on a church billboard this afternoon. Simple yet powerful. I should hold onto that a more often. i have changed in the last 4 years. i am more emotional than ever. meaning that i just can't fake it like i used to. and almost i can only take so much. gone are the days of holding everything in and trying to be emotionless. my eyes shoot daggers and so does my mouth sometimes. now i do feel ashamed and relieved at the same time. but i also feel the stress run through my veins as well. now things dont linger too long, but the amount of energy spent is still very much a problem.

maybe its a part of getting older that i cannot fight. maybe i am in the beginning phases of getting crotchety like my mom says.

Forehead Titaes

2010-03-17T00:30:00.000-04:00

and i thought i was foolish

Love and Loathe

2010-03-16T17:41:00.002-04:00

Love
1. the new longer days, a precursor to the night breeze of long summer nights
2. the new condo, i have wasted far too much time looking at plaster and tiles, with a punchdrunk smile on my face
3. the serenity and better sense of self worth, lol, i guess the "American Dream" is real. and i am not talking about Dusty Rhodes.
4. spring is around the corner
5. at times feeling like it all makes sense, well this is only one step of many (validation)
6. actually having something to talk about with those who with whom i have little in common

Loathe
1. the job is still a bitch
2. the longer commute
3. that i am hemorrhaging money, and have so many things to buy to get this place look like a home
4. the solitude, living on the other side of town now, there are almost no drop-in guests which further increases the "in-balance" of my life
5. that my favorite free porn site consortium now makes me register every 48 hours to look at their FREE porn. the catch is they send a password to my phone, which will cost me $9.99 per month as a premium text message. if you know me, i really hate paying my cell phone bill. i am that tacky person who will wait until days before my disconnection to pay this bill in particular. so anything that increases my bill is met with a lot of resistance.
6.

It Ain't What You Do, Its How You Do It

2010-03-11T22:40:00.002-05:00

You are the reason, niggas be screaming bitches, hoes and tricks
Bahamadia
"True Honey Buns" 1996

Tighten up your shit. In the last year and a half you have progressively fallen deeper into ill repute and now your dumb ass is knocked up. Now, for a woman who was recently divorced, one would assume that you could handle yourself just a little better. You try to gas me with lies, then you start sleeping with my friend, whom you met through me. Now you are 4 months pregnant but you post club pics on a regular basis. I don't care if you are not showing, you should have kept you ass at home during CIAA. Have more respect for yourself. Maybe I said that too soon. I left out that you kept the door open for my man to hit again while you are pregnant.

FYI the friend in question is not the "baby daddy"

I remember a comedian said "your woman is your woman, but Hoes are for everybody"

You are real damn shameful.

Salute to NC's Finest II

2010-03-10T03:15:00.004-05:00

John Coltrane

Thelonius Monk

I really wanted to put Dizzy Gillespie on this one, but he is from right across the border in Cheraw, SC

I dedicate this to all the memories I cannot shake

2010-03-08T02:03:00.003-05:00

I must be getting old. Old faces, times and faces keep running past me. And everything nostalgic leaves me by the moment. but sometimes i close my eyes and wish for one more try

My fingers got a little dusty today

2010-03-07T21:43:00.010-05:00

i promised myself to buy a new record player once i moved. well, i just moved and honored my promise. so it was only fitting that i did some light crate diggin. nothing major just a little more soul in the collection

Quentin Street Memories

2010-03-07T21:01:00.002-05:00

So i just bought a townhome. I am still not settled in but i am working on it. So i traded in the westside for the eastside. its not quite a deluxe apartment in the sky but its all mine and i love it. but it is still a little bittersweet leaving my home for 2.5 years. the westside has a bad reputation, which i deserved in many respects but its big on character and characters.

i saw a group of brothas on horseback jaywalk and stop traffic both ways at 4pm during the week. and one of the guys was bold enough to talk shit with an unlit cigarette flapping between his lips with each syllable, looking like one of those loiterers outside the pool hall somewhere

i lived on a small street, there were only 4 houses on my side. of the five, my house was the only one that was crack or crackhead free. old grown rusty crackheads at that. now they did not cause trouble, other than illegally squatting in the house two doors down. and the fight between brother and sister in the front yard over some paltry amount of crack or money. i almost forgot about the lady banging onb the door one morning yelling for him to put the crackpipe down and open. i never found out why, but i can guess.

i saw a kid get knocked out MMA style at the bus stop, just two weeks ago. while stopped at the light, one kid jumped out a car and in a flurry of punches and a quick scoop, i saw feet fly in the air, then a little ground and pound. the aggressor jumped in the car and sped off. the attacked laying limp on the ground was out for maybe a whole 60 count. his friends who offered no help when he was getting attacked helped him up then supported him since his legs were jelly.

while getting take out for the Jamaican spot, we, my brother and I, saw a dude swipe a 24 pack of beer from the convenience store. he gets to the car and the getaway driver is 10 ft away talking to someone over a cigarette. before the driver can get to the car, the owner puts a gun to his head as he sits in the passenger seat and returns to work with this merchandise in tow.

i will surely miss those fine tellers and at BofA on Beaties Ford. They made me smile as I counted the pennies in my bank account every time I came past

i will miss that mean indian women at the local Subway. she was treacherous to everyone, employees and customers. one day, she this chick had words for her. She said one day somebody is going to shut up that mouth of yours. She left. i ordered. On my way back that same lady returned. I went to the car and both of them were alone. I did not turn around as i went to the car, it was not my business.

i will miss the cold winters and hot summers. good lawd, the temperature control in the house was non-existent. every room would vary in temp. by 8 degrees or so. i would sleep in different rooms according to seasons. my room was for fall, spring and summer since i upgraded those AC units, but the winters i slept in the living room or in the back rooms. it was brutal. how can you spend $150 a month in natural gas and still be cold.

i will ms Ms Barbara who was the block's CNN, nothing went down without passing through her ears

Inspiration II

2010-02-25T12:24:00.002-05:00

Boyz N the Hood

2010-02-24T12:34:00.002-05:00

I watched Boyz in the Hood again. Its been almost twenty years and I still find that movie very powerful. John Singleton was at the top of his game, giving plot and complexity to a coming of age stories set in South Central LA. Well developed black characters are still a rarity in modern media. Even look at Ricky and Doughboy's Mom. She was a single mom in South Central with issues no doubt, but she was still a well thought out and written character.

And Furious Styles, was black father of year 1991. From the knowledge the laid on the young brothers to that stirring speech on gentrification. He was strong, intelligent and compassionate just what a young black man needs.

Seeing this brings me to one of my favorite songs by Murs, take a listen

Inspiration

2010-02-24T01:35:00.003-05:00

Sometimes thats all you really need

2010-02-24T01:33:00.002-05:00

Its CIAA time, once again.

2010-02-24T00:23:00.003-05:00

Those two stories will play themselves out thousands of times in the next few days. Its a year's worth of signifying condensed in five days. This is year five I think and its has lost much of its luster for me. I will lose no sleep when it finally leaves Charlotte someday. You heard it first for me. I have been to better parties for half the price and hype. I guess its fueled by the droves of Charlotteans who finally come out of hiding for maybe once out of the entire year. Let me restate that the "black professionals" that come out very seldomly. Many of which are sited enjoying Charlotte nightlife the way Big Foot was pictured in the Pacific Northwest.

Good for some, not for all

A Personal Favorite of Mine

2010-02-08T23:36:00.003-05:00

i am just happy to see some "classy" photos of "urban" models. I have seen far too many "ass" shots in magazines over the years. some of these women are starting to look cartoonish, its like our answer to the "waif" model, 45" hips and the smallest waist conceivable. if you take time to appreciate, it will take more than the next
"donk" of the month to get your attention.

William Foster

2010-02-08T23:32:00.003-05:00

William Foster was his name. If you can remember Michael Douglas looking like a mad substitute teacher on a rampage throughout the grimmiest parts of LA in Falling Down. Well, he almost made an appearance around 11:20 AM today. And i know just from how people start reacting to me. My eyes burned wholes through an aggravating curry-smelling woman today. She confirmed it with her soggy-ass half-hearted apology. but i kept him in check, but on the inside i really wished i was yielding his Louisville Slugger.

Success

2010-02-04T18:03:00.002-05:00

a friend of mine, said that I was successful. actually, i(we= our friends in common, including myself) are successful. Me, successful, I don't quite see it that way. Most definitely it could be worse, but I always saw it as striving to do better. And I still do have a long way to go.

So i take the compliment, and i will turn back to my regularly scheduled program.

Or maybe, I should give myself a small pat on the back. I am workin on it.

oh yeah, the song and the blog have nothing to do with each other. Just another gen, i had to lay on you

I am....

2010-01-28T19:58:00.002-05:00

.........watching Sparkle for the 3rd time in two days, its good to see black people acting to a plot.

.........planning some big thangs in 2010, for every valley there is hopefully a higher mountain on the other side. 2009, was an ugly bitch that I have put behind me. Onward to bigger and better things, one step at a time (Broken United FC, you definitely feel me)

.........multilayered and sometimes those layer clash against each other. Managing those opposing pieces is a daily tight rope balance. But i have been doing it well lately

.........still athletic, or at least kinda. I jumped some fences at the house the other day and i still got a little spring in me. Even at 225 lbs, don't doubt "the Kid"

.........not as enthusiastic or gullible like i used to be, but i am keener and more clever than ever. i still think that my brain is an untapped resource. My brother even called me articulate and stated i was a thinking man. The biggest ego stroke I have had in a long time. Thanks, I really needed that.

.........still young at heart, i hope that never changes

.........have smiled more in 2010, than I did in the last quarter of 2009

.........still soul searching, and finding new things every day

.........fighting temptation and its very close by

.........looking forward to a brand new reality that i am working toward

.........repeating myself, this is the same as the second bullet

.........signing off for the moment

Curry Is Not A Fragrance

2010-01-27T23:32:00.004-05:00

I repeat, curry is not a fragrance. if you look past Polo, Kenneth Cole, Sean Jean, Dolce and Gabana in favor of that fresh curry scent, you are really fucking up. i There is no other way to say it. and it must be a unisex cologne too. maybe you will find it beside Calvin Klein's One at Perfumania.

And its bad when you just casually pass somebody in the aisle and one breath later you are suffocating. It sometimes jumps across the counter at me. And even worse, it lingers in the air and ambushes you when you walk into its smoke screen. but the worst i when it beams from one's breath. the long arm of curry breath is a force to be reconed with. i think i teared up once or twice due to it.

Ten to twenties times a week I am subjected to this. I try my best to avoid any extended conversations with any one who fits the description as a wearer of this cologne.

i understand that curry is a staple in the diet of some ethnic groups, but if i walked around smelling like freshly fried westside chicken, somebody would be blogging about me. that scent is hideous when out of place too.

so i repeat curry is not a fragrance.

i cant even eat curry anymore. no more jamaican curry goat. no indian restaurants or food, under no circumstances. i couldnt live with myself, if i became the nest harbinger of that wicked smell.

so when you decide to leave the house, check for your keys, wallet, ID, etc, but be sure to leave that damen curry alone. its one smell thats best not shared.

hmm, maybe i mispoke, i think that Vietnamese meal I had the other day had curry, but I didnt not smuggle it out of the restaruant.

2010-01-23T18:17:00.000-05:00

i can't say it any better than Jimi himself, "i got my own world to live in and i aint gonna copy you!

Teddy Still Reigns

2010-01-22T23:09:00.003-05:00

In tribute to Teddy, I wanted to share this song with you. But I then stumbled on this live performance and those sweaty bangs. Never did I know he had a perm, bob, looking like George Harrison when the Beatles invaded the US. And to think the started with the Blue Notes as a drummer. When Teddy is your drummer, just imagine how much overall talent you must have to pull that off, even for a mere day. On that note, music has plummeted tremendously

sorry, if you check the other day, i had the right words but the wrong video

I want a refund

2010-01-17T21:15:00.003-05:00

I went to a wedding over the summer. No I was coerced into going to a wedding over the summer. I only go to weddings when it is mandatory. I just don't get into it. My girlfriend's sister got married in July in Virginia. Since she was going that way, i decided to make a vacation of it and we traveled to Philly, Delaware and Maryland since we were going to be up that way. We had a nice time for the first five days, but those two days of wedding and respective preparations were the worst. From being stood up at the wedding party dinner, due to slack communication and preparations, to wandering aimlessly through Georgetown after midnight on Thursday with the wedding party, to going to U Street with the most unenthusiastic man on the planet. I said man, not groom. He was a lively as a pet rock, out on the town with his boys. Then cap it off with a stale ass ceremony.

Well when your relationship is garbage and the bride and groom have actually been married (at the the Justice of Peace) upwards of six months before the ceremony, there is really nothing to celebrate. Furthermore, the couple doesn't have get along anyway. Their first clue is that they never appear to be happy in each other's prescence.

The first clue to knowing that marriage isnt a good idea. So i did my part bought a suit and shoes that may never be worn again. I forgot the shirt tie and socks too. I paid $139 for a room at the Embassy Suites, which is the same as any other hotel except for the big open atrium area. And did I mention its in Alexandria, Va. All my people live on the Maryland side, so in total they did me no favors. So i am sending a $500 invoice for my expenses and total waste of time.

Now i bet you ask why. because i just learned that he left her. not even six months after wasting all of our time. and six months after them arguing on their "wedding" night. we could have stayed at home and just seen the pictures. so as bad as it sounds, despite your pain and suffering for entering into a time bomb of a marriage, i still want my $600. I take cash, credit, money orders, or even barter. but i gottat have it. and furthermore, i will not waste another ounce of energy or money to attend another one of your functions. now, my lady can feel free to roll by herself, but i will choose otherwise.

Chance Encounter

2010-01-16T23:45:00.002-05:00

Right after my first year in college, I went to Delaware with a good friend of mine. I stayed for a week and hung out with him and some family that stays in the area. Well we went to the King of Prussia mall, which is in suburban Philly. Its a high class mall, or at least it was to me in '99. My friend was looking for something to wear to this chick's prom in a few weeks. He was smelling himself so much that he went wearing a leisure suit, and topped it off with a Versace shirt. Well while we were checking out, Teddy Pendergrass and his wife come in. And surprisingly enough, I recognized him instantly. I wasnt into soul music quite as much as i am now. Although starstruck, i did mutter, "Hello Mr. Pendergrass," before leaving. Now as I walked by I saw that he had the hottest boots on ever. Yes, his boots were "kickin," like Eddie Murphy said in Golden Child. And it was ironic that someone confined to a wheelchair would wear such flambloyant boots, but I guess thats a day in the life of the "Velvet Teddy Bear."

You definitely will be missed. The world is just a little less sexy without you. This is the dude who had women only lock-in concerts. Never to be duplicated.

so i leave you with my favorite Teddy song. Love TKO, i have been on the wrong side of this one a few times, and it seemed like no one but Teddy knew what i was going through.

A Departure from the Norm

2010-01-11T22:28:00.004-05:00

Not my usual style but......i have been watching my foreign films and ran across her again, Ms Ana Claudia Talancon

Message to Gilbert

2010-01-08T01:14:00.002-05:00

This is for Sandy-Ass Gilbert. All this trouble for unloaded guns. Maybe you are a zero after all. Or just invest in a bodyguard, SUCKA!

oh yeah, Arena=sand in Spanish

I know the feeling

2010-01-04T00:29:00.002-05:00

Larry Holmes is a legend in my mind. Not for almost eclipsing Rocky Marciano's boxing record. Moreso, for that dropkick off the limo you just saw. The back story is that Berbick was saying that Larry's girlfriend was a prostitute from Jacksonville. Well like Larry, one can only stand so much talk before they snap. Now I will control myself, but when i close my eyes I see a Marty Jannety dropkick right into someone's chest.

I had to steal this one

2010-01-03T23:38:00.001-05:00

"Don’t be a stagnant motherfucker without a gotdamn plan."

it hits far too close to home.

Appreciation

2010-01-03T23:26:00.000-05:00

Bad Taste

2009-12-30T00:27:00.003-05:00

This is called the Urinal for Gays. The sick side of me laughed endlessly upon seeing this. When I found this the caption said, what do Gays do when they go to the bathroom together. lol

This reminds me of making "Pee Crosses" as a youngster in daycare.

its bewildering the things we do when we we dont know any better

In Search of Balance

2009-12-29T22:21:00.001-05:00

I need sip of life's V8

Ambition

2009-12-20T11:50:00.001-05:00

Foxy, I'm a black man, and I don't know how to sing, and I don't know how to dance, and I don't know how to preach to no congregation. I'm too small to be a football hero, and too ugly to be elected mayor. But I watch TV and see all these folks and the nice homes they live in and all them fancy cars they drive, I just get so full of ambition. Now you tell me what I'm supposed to do with all this ambition?

Link Brown from Foxy Brown 1974

If it wasn't for YouTube

2009-12-20T11:06:00.003-05:00

I wasnt ready for this when it first came out. this has to be one of the best videos of all time. from the time period setting, to the slinky dresses with the forearm gloves.

this is a tribute to days long gone, and thanks to youtube for keeping them accessible.

House of Cards

2009-12-17T21:19:00.004-05:00

In 2009, my house of cards came crashing down. I lost a certain amount of hope. The job was a vehicle, now a large burden that provides no answers. the finances have gone the wrong way, due to the ramifications of the aforementioned job. Home ownership is farther away than ever.

so in 2010, i search for the fleeting mistress called HOPE

if it weren't for my loved ones, i would have snapped some time ago. thank you.

One for the road

2009-12-15T17:11:00.002-05:00

The Foreign Exchange - "Written All Over Your Face" LIVE at Black Cat, Washington DC from The Foreign Exchange on Vimeo.

damn i need to go to another concert. maybe thats whats wrong with me. its like those who didnt drink the V8 in those old time commercials.

I actually cracked a smile for thisone

2009-12-15T17:01:00.002-05:00

The Foreign Exchange's Grammy nomination video from The Foreign Exchange on Vimeo.

its been a rough season. i havent smiled much lately. i am happy you are getting some well deserved respect.

Things I've Learned

2009-12-11T23:36:00.003-05:00

as you get older you get more comfortable with yourself. and not all of that is good. when i am alone things go thru my head repeatedly. i don't always acknowledge them but undeniably they are there

1. i am sexist. maybe i am stating it too harshly, but men are men and women are women. the difference is undeniable. now its not about dominance or inferiority, just difference. i am chivalrous to a point, beyond that is ridiculous.

2. i am prejudiced (more than race). We all are. if you say you are not, then you are a liar. as people we are different. we have different attributes, we are to be handled differently. now the bad part, there is a group of people that i don't like. they have never been nice to me and they work my nerves whenever i am faced with them. i bet they are nice people amongst themselves, but what they project to those outside their race, doesn't lead me to think highly of them. thats just being honest. and they probably don't like me either.

3. my patience is growing thinner by the day, especially at work. its getting bad. i have a look what i cant control its like in a cartoon when steam blows out a character's ears. i had this look and made a lady cry at work the other day. now, she was overdoing it. i wasn't mean, didn't raise my voice, i actually spent too much time helping her inconvenient ass, but the look speaks for itself

4. i am a better son, brother, grandson, boyfriend or acquaintance than ever before. my loved ones, i do love. i put in for my people without blinking in many instances. the better you are, the better i am

5. at 30, i still see myself as an untapped reservoir. i still await another transformation. i have energy, ambition, and will to dedicate to many things. yet i am still searching. i hope to assemble the pieces to my masterpiece soon

6. i am tired of being broke. its not fun or cute.

....."Can't Finish Like Charles Smith"......

2009-12-11T13:24:00.003-05:00

i heard Joell Ortiz say it in a freestyle. one of the illest lines i have heard in a while. it recreated the visions you just say. The Knicks' collapses marked the end of my love affair with the NBA.

those daggers from the Knicks' losses still sting

SMH

2009-12-08T21:10:00.000-05:00

old people and innuendo, a bad combo

Isaac is my name

2009-12-08T20:37:00.002-05:00

the extra low haircut and the strong beard earned me the nickname "Isaac". he had no idea that i was a fan. i'll bee dat

Grover Washington Jr

2009-12-08T20:31:00.002-05:00

Broad St and Diamond in Philly a legend is muralized. a mural is an ultimate form of respect and Grover's is well deserved

the groove on this one is phenomenal.

Stakes is High

2009-12-08T19:30:00.005-05:00

Stakes is High and you doing this bullshit

1. tiger is fucking up so badly. i dont even know if the money can save him now. he is in the kobe category and its getting worse by the day. nine jump offs have come out the closet on him. nine in a five year marriage, thats terrible for the with the blandest man on tv. only beyonce is as bland as ginger snaps

2. didnt MJ teach him the game? i just know MJ was a snake. either clandestine payoffs or very pricey hookers. i am sure he has experience with both.

3. he may have been taking Barkely's advice on cheating. if you will take relationship advice from Barkely you should sign up for his fitness seminar too

4. does Tiger even cheat with any ethnic women? i mean damn, he is multi racial from Cali, you do the math. he has all the colors of the rainbow to chose from and only Becky's and Kaitlin's he chose. taste the rainbow for me Tiger, for me

5. and he got exposed in the most dramatic fashion too. the wife swinging the 3 iron. the crash and conflicting neighbor's testimony. their statements conflict everything he says. then the other chicks emerge like soap scum in the bath tub. which i think is grimy. if you knew the game and still wound up on your back, if you take offense with him that may be deserved. but embarrasing him and his family thats not cool cause you were just the willing tramp not too long ago, dont get mad when things dont go your way. you knew what you signed up for. its not like he could hide his marriage. you could google him.

6 maybe he needed a manager to manage his women and it would have worked better

Repressed Thoughts

2009-11-25T11:15:00.002-05:00

A few things have been on my mind for a while. i wanted to compile them into individual blogs, but i didn't have the time nor the patience.

so i was out with friends for a birthday outing, mostly women, black, professional women. so needless to say, relationships became a topic. so i was forced to tell the unadulterated truth. i cant hold back to my sistas, but i failed at sugarcoating some time ago. so the conversation meandered about professional women and their woes at finding good men and/or men living up to their expectations. and of course all of these women are attractive with good jobs and great outlooks toward the future. yes, you already know where the convo goes. and what is evident is that women do not know about men, especially smart, professional, biological clock driven women.

1. black women, especially Southern black women have this fixation with religion. and a religious man is either top three on the list. ok, i will not disputes the merit of religion in life and/or relationships. a man is judged by his actions. lets face it, you require that your man do things, make things happen. and for a good man, that is our focus. we have to produce, to hold onto you. as women, you want things that we are to provide, finances, romance, support. we fix things, move things, come up with ideas and solutions. letting go and letting God, just isn't in our nature. you may want us to, but that's not enough, not saying that prayer or one's spirituality does not help the situation, but its quantifiable actions. therefore, you can't judge a mans spirituality the same way you do yours. its different, treat it as such.

2. men look for women, who "fit" into our plan. i, we, need someone who can roll with our punches. who will treat us like the king, we see ourselves as. if you are the professional jet setter, it takes a man of a certain caliber to be your king. now there are many good men out here but as you attain more status and income, your expectation directly increase. so if that trend persists, you are actually shrinking your pool of viable candidates by the second. that's the ugly truth. i do not know the solution. i wouldn't want you to lower your expectations.

3. get off the bullshit. in an infamous convo, it was uttered that a 5'9" not desirable to a certain single lady in her thirties who is only 5'2." and since she is single, i told her in the gentlest way you may have to come off that bs. it was uttered that, "i might have to lower my standards." wow!!! dating a man who is under six foot is the newest form of lowering standards. ladies get real and go after something real. the whole is greater than the sum of the parts, i hope you learn and react on that before its too late.

4. i kicked it with this chick for a while ending in January. i ran into her over the summer at a cookout. she pursued one of my best friends and they "kicked" it a few times. now my friend clued me in from the beginning. but i am still a little aghast about how she pursued him. i just expected a little more decency. then she had the nerve to text me with the proverbial was thinking about you......thats what i get for messing with a woman of ill repute

5. men and women are far from equal. we are very much different. we have different roles, different ways of doing things and different strengths. thinking that we are sounds nice and politically correct, but life ain't politically correct. when she gets pregnant and you are walking her little rat dog in the cold and rain late at night, you will know there is a distinct difference

6. i am in a relationship. its a lot of work. it tests you in unimaginable ways. maybe i was single for so much of my twenties because i couldn't handle it when i was younger. maybe i had to mature on my own so i could be where i am now

7. now that i am in a relationship, the urge to flirt is so much stronger. i really have to hold back. its strange how it works

8. i am tired of complaining. i need results

9. my hairline is slowly receding. my bank account has receded much faster. and a bald head is more work than a damn haircut

The Original Milf

2009-11-21T18:54:00.003-05:00

before i even was totally aware of my own senses, i had a gut reaction to Mrs. Huxtable. Classy, smart, beautiful, but there was something else i couldnt quite put my finger on way back then. its the flirty looks and snide comments that are so damn sexy.

but before she was THE milf of our young lives, she was just damn sexy

Its that time of year

2009-11-21T17:47:00.002-05:00

its that time of year, thanksgiving kicks off the christmas season. while i enjoy all the festivity, this season has its drawbacks. its the relatives you have to deal with. I love my family yet cant spent the holidays with them. going up to Zebulon, PG county, or Delawarre with the family especially my brother brings back many good memories. plus my brother and i take mental notes on everybody that we cant compare to the end of the night. from mothballs to Uncle Slickback, our late night convos in Uncle D's basement are definitelyo out of control.

so to all put on your tough skin, suck it up and make the most of it. at the least, some smiles, laughs, hugs and some good food make it all worth it.

and of course, BANG, BANG, BANG

Jason's Deli

2009-11-17T17:49:00.001-05:00

I was sitting at Jason's Deli and they played this song. I guess there is more soul at Jason's Deli than I would have ever known.

Salute to NC's Finest

2009-11-12T23:33:00.003-05:00

Foxy Brown is one of our very own. She is from Winston-Salem. And i thought that Winston-Salem only produced Winston's, Salem's and thuggery. I am proud to be a Tar Heel

Say it ain't so Sammy

2009-11-11T19:19:00.003-05:00

I have come full circle with Sammy Sosa. Not quite full circle more like the end of the road. In 2001, I went to the Dominican Republic to study Spanish. My father bankrolled a summer immersion for me. He gave me the money and a date by which i had to submit my plan. After doing much research, I settled on the Dominican Republic because of three people: Vladimir Guerrero then a Montreal Expo, Sammy Sosa of the Chicago Cubs and Carlos Delgado of the Toronto Blue Jays(who is actually Puerto Rican). It fascinated me that blacks were of Latin descent, hmmm maybe i should word that differently. Better yet, blacks but Latin in culture, that's how i really see it. to see someone like your self who speaks only Spanish, in Guererro's case, was mind boggling. In the Western Hemisphere, I hadn't been exposed (consciously) to that and it sparked endless curiosity for me. So i focused on going to the DR to get closer to it. It was one of the best decisions of my life. Besides learning Spanish, it enriched culturally. I felt like I belonged, like a long lost cousin. I blended in, until I opened my mouth.

But being there, I saw that it was definitely different being black in Latin America. Athletes and entertainers were almost exclusively the only blacks, I saw on TV. Even darker skinned Dominicans were few and far between on the big screen. An outsider would think that all Dominicans were either pure blood Castillian or possibly a little mix of Spanish and the native islanders. this did not reflect of the vast spectrum of hues I saw everyday.

I was also fascinated by hair textures and whom they belonged to. it was almost as interesting as the array of skin colors. I saw the straightest hair on some of the darkest people, mail and female. and when i say straight, I don't mean a good perm, I mean almost "natural yaki" type hair that one usually does not expect from someone darker than a brown paper bag.

and as i spoke to people, there was more of a singular national identity that unified all of the colors. whereas they were teaching me that i was American( i guess i always knew that but hadn't fully realized it in my then 22 yrs of life). since i always considered myself black before American. Skin color is an obviously more divisive element in our culture compared to theirs. It divides us fundamentally in the US, not quite as much there.

then i looked at couples. rarely did i see two people of the same complexion, unless they were both of a lighter complexion. Now in some convos i was hipped to the racism that existed. i heard about the historical tension between Haitians and Dominicans, which in many way fuels the racism and colorism that exists today. In the 1800s, Haitains conquered and ruled the DR for over 20 years. Their independence day February 27, marks the independance from Haiti, not Spain. Since then being "black" is akin to being Haitian, which is not welcome at all. The irony is that Dominicans have their own history with slavery. so there are "native" blacks to the country.

Being black in the US is one thing. Being black and/or poor outside of the US, means that 95% of the time you will remain poor for generations. Higher education is for the higher classes, and the opportunities to ascend within social ranks like in the US maybe unprecedented throughout the world. With that revelation I felt that the "black burden" was larger and more stifling than our own.

So to my dismay, I saw both TCB (not the sheen, but the perming products in a large tub)and skin bleaching products on the same aisle. I never caught the eye of any darker skinned Dominican ladies, although they impressed me the most and learned that being dark with a dark skinned black man maybe socially undesirable to them. That really hurt. I do admit.

so when I see Sammy Sosa, it all comes back to me. Despite all the travesty that we endure here, things are much more progressive race wise. Elsewhere, the progressiveness is not there. We have the NAACP and Jessie and Permed out Al to fight for us on a grand stage. Even if you don't like them, they do maintain a presence for us that keeps some people in check. Even if we get "tokened," we get something. without any of that consciousness, a multi-millionaire black man in desperately poor nation may still not feel vindicated. he may bleach himself white, especially after he has been disgraced in the US by lying about his steroid use. Sosa was a national hero in his homeland. Those home runs, were not just stats and he was not just a player. He is/was the DR's most famous person and prime representative. Maybe being black and Dominican, Sammy feels like he doesn't get a second chance. When you aren't comfortable at home, then you are not comfortable. I feel very sad for him and any other diasporic black people who feel ashamed of their blackness.

maybe it was Soul Train, the Cosby Show, Different World, Shaft, Foxy Brown, Black History Month, or many of the countless images that make me proud of myself, people, color, features and heritage. Unfortunately, they many not have those images in bulk numbers like we do to spurn that same type pride.

i also read about the issue of "bad hair" in Latin America, maybe that will be part II.

Say it ain't so Sammy........I hope you find your "swagger" again. I hate the overuse of that word (swagger) but i am sure you know what i mean.

and if you had a Jheri curl in 1991, how can you go white in 2009. seriously, he had a mini Easy E with the White Sox/Rangers.

A Step for Mankind

2009-11-11T19:11:00.001-05:00

One down, many more to go (sinister laugh)

I had to show a little love

2009-10-19T15:37:00.002-04:00

October is Hispanic Heritage Month, so i felt it a duty to spread a little love to my hispanic/latino brethren. I wish i had something profound to share, words from a world famous poet or head of state. but i will stick to what i know, Buena Vista Social Club

lol, i really wanted to put a Iris Chacon booty shake video up. now she is a legend but she just doesn't fit the occassion. maybe next time

His Swagger is Mean

2009-10-19T08:31:00.003-04:00

i guess thats what the "youth" might say, i just find this hilarious. Bill Cosby at his finest. before the sweaters and pudding pops, he was just damn hilarious. i just finished watching Uptown Saturday Night and Let's Do It Again. your favorite tv father was a bullshit artist with a nasty beard and wicked of style. check it out if you can.

I remember when.....................

2009-10-13T17:06:00.004-04:00

gimmicks werent everything. Mohawks were an attitude and damn near permanent. both mr t and animal still rock the Mohawk. both are old as shit and wrinkled but the spirit lives within him. that breeds respect
Mohawks were an attitude

now your ass needs to tighten up. maybe if you didn't look like a douche, your 95 lb fiancee would talk to you with some respect. so you don't have to rough her up. and tell your AFC brother JaMarcus Russell, to get deeper in the playbook and in the barber chair at Anderton's where he can get a real haircut

Clay Davis says it best

2009-10-07T22:10:00.003-04:00

thats how i feel, insert any number of situations in the blank ________________.

i tried to explain in more details, but couldn't type the words.

chickenshits, i have no love for you

Support your local artist

2009-10-07T12:50:00.000-04:00

The Foreign Exchange - ''I Wanna Know'' from The Foreign Exchange on Vimeo.

hot damn, another favorite

Something the Lord Made I

2009-10-06T00:04:00.005-04:00

need i say more. my cousin went to high school with her in Detroit. i saw her in July and still am waiting for her to give me an introduction. i can do the rest. i will be sharp, smelling good and have a line so tight on the beard that LeVert (RIP) would be proud.

Man can't make 'em like that. he hath not the ability. only the lawwwwwd can make it like that

Again, its necessary

2009-09-28T02:22:00.001-04:00

This is a retread, but i needed it. i am seeking answers. maybe not my soul, but answers nonetheless

Taps: Rosa Acosta

2009-09-27T12:48:00.006-04:00

This is a new series. I want to give respect to anyone who has fallen from grace. This weeks edition is dedicated to Rosa Acosta. If you didn't know the is model who set the world on fire with her seductive stretching videos. yes no ass clappin just stretching. i think she has been featured in some videos too. i was in lust, but over the last few weeks i have begun to see her in gossip headlines, with the infamous Soulja Boy. One rumors her to be possibly engaged and others just play up their relationship. i'll be brief cause bangin on Soulja isn't worth stretching my fingers to hit the next key. So all i will say, is that if that is what it takes to get close to Ms Acosta, i will have pass. i do judge women by the company they keep, if you hang with clowns, i guess thats what you really are. i can't duplicate that, even if had Powerball money tomorrow.

So Ms Acosta, you have slid from grace, but I do look forward to another stretching video

Sunday Soul

2009-09-27T12:38:00.001-04:00

just a little soul to get you thru the day.

The Microwave II

2009-09-24T02:48:00.003-04:00

Beside Isiah, is Vinnie Johnson aka the Microwave. he came of the bench and became instant offense. he is a legend to me. stout in stature, not too handsome but beloved because of his grit and exciting play.

today,i was the Microwave. i went into the office and became instantly offensive. i had two complaints against me, 1) from a slack ass employee whose tender feelings were hurt because i had to call her out on being slack 2) a customer who deemed me unpleasant stating that i acted like i didn't want to be there

i'll cut to the good part. in regards to #2, i told my boss that i don't appear happy because i am not happy. he is aware of the entire situation: last two months have been a clusterfuck of inexperienced and rotating employees, as well as constant support to our counterparts thus leaving our dept in a quagmire of un-attempted duties which grows as i write this. i then said that everyday i come to work i feel like i am being dicked from behind. thats why i am not smiling. furthermore, i said that i cannot fake a smile. i hand customers accordingly and thoroughly, but i cannot be bubbly. it is not in me. although, i am angry as hell, i do not take it out on the customers. i actually talk in a lower tone of voice and have not had any "words" with anyone, employee or customer in maybe eight months. so he did his obligatory, we need to suck up to customers routine and i know its been stressfull but..........blah blah blah.

imma be me. i am not tap dancing for these overly sensitive, need their hand held crackers that come into my establishment. they get served, and thats it. he can do Mr. Bojangles all he wants too. Fuck that.

when i get treated better, i will reciprocate. but thats not coming soon. so i will do what i must to stay loyal to my check, but they can lick my salty scrotum about the other shit, employees too.

Its not easy, but I am

2009-09-21T23:44:00.003-04:00

I am a Panthers/Redskins fan. I was born a Redskins fan. I have passed good ole RFK repeatedly while in DC visiting the fam and now they live only 3 miles from the new stadium.

I became a Panthers fan, living here in Charlotte. being a Panthers fan is a test of fortitude. we have a good team, but moving to the next level has been a challenge. we a few minutes away from a Super Bowl victory, which has left a bad taste in our mouths. the inconsistency that has followed, no consective winning seasons, two NFC Championship losses, have us all foaming at the corners of our mouthes, waiting and wishing for that ultimate season.

with a solid nucleus, we always seem short a part or two which leaves us reeling. Here is my list of GM mistakes that have tanked us. These are great causes for losing seasons and inconsistency.

Wide Receivers

Mushin Muhammad

we let go a few years ago. Steve Smith came in and stole his shine. Plus Mushin had a habit of shining during a contract year, while the years in between were rather lackluster. you were aging and demanded too high of a price. So we let you go. Great business move, but not so great on the field. which leads us to our next contestant

We then drafted Keary Colbert from USC. he was to fill Muhammads shoes and be another weapon for our very predictable offense. Keary couldn't catch VD. Did he catch 50 balls as a starter for 2 seasons or more.

Speaking of USC wide receivers, we went to the well again with Dwayne Jarrett. Bad route runner, a few injuries = no productivity. Less than two career catches and this is his third seasons. He has hosted more parties than that. I understand why Jake lives and dies with #89, Jarrett can't catch the swine flu in quarantine. Note to Management, lay off the USC wide receivers.

Calcium deficient DaShaun Foster. in '03, he was a beast behind Stephen Davis. he ran hard, broke tackles, a North-South runner. but he stayed hurt. i once went to Burger King and incidentally we met his cousin who worked there. she said he was always hurt because he never drank milk as a child. he would have worked out if he could have remained a good 2nd option at RB, but that year he was alone and got that 1 year extension for good money. it was like watching the tsunami coming towards me, i knew we were in for a rough season.

Jake Delhomme

He has to be the mosted hated QB in the league. or at least on a "decent" team. the way this season has started, i use decent loosely. he is just not accurate. his leadership skills far outweigh his talent. maybe he should have been a marine. he is obviously limited. he doesnt spread the ball and throws hail mary's all the time. not to the end zone at the end of the game like you are accostomed to seeing. he throws passes to Smith like he is a frisbee catching dog. now Steve's supernatural talents allow him to get too many of them. this has elevated Jake well above his mediocrity but its not new. now every team has the handbook to defeat us. key on the run game then allow Jake to hang himself. because between the inaccuracy and dependency he will cause turnovers. and to think a QB, with this many limitations was rewarded with a 5 yr $40 million extension after one of the worst games of his life. something is wrong with that. i have heard that called failing upwards. half of it is guaranteed, so if we cut him, we still pay him. good job, management. at the time when you should already have someone in place being groomed to take his position, you pull this. i am a fan, but i definitely see some dark days ahead.

Steve is a year older and Jake is no better. nor do i see any valuable free agent signings on the horizon. if the panthers don't draft you or get your for cheap, you won't be here

They all can't be good girls

2009-09-16T17:53:00.002-04:00

say what you want, Amber Rose is a bad bitch. i had to put that in writing. the very first time i say her, i didn't get it. i guess i was overwhelmed by the blond low-cut. after i got over myself, she beemed with a glow like Shogun of Harlem's. she is dripping with sexy appeal. usually i like more thickness, i am from the south, so what do you expect. she crashed all conventions with that undeniable sex appeal. she is the kind of chick that has you sitting at dinner with a chubby, with no provocation. so i see why Yeezy had to snatch her up.

as we all know she is definitely not the type of chick you bring home to mama. now unfortunately yeezy doesn't have to go through that situation so he has her out on front street. going to premieres, black tie events and as you all know, the VMA's.

this is where dating a stripper goes wrong. strip her of the designer clothes and elbow rubbing with famous people. she is the nyc stripper who not too long ago was living damn near on skid row. therefore, she accompanies her man at the VMA's, with a bottle of Henny. and you already know the rest of the story. she isn't looking out for her own golden goose. tighten up lady.

Yeezy, have your fun then get out, i mean pull out. leave before you give birth to a check and/or you do some more damage to your "pop" career. she is permanent side chick status. don't call her up to the big leagues.

this is frq, signing off.

The Vault Revisited

2009-09-13T12:59:00.002-04:00

I am knockin the lock off the vault. i will kick it off with a classic from non other than David Ruffin. funny glasses, drug habit, ego-maniacal, but damn the song is fire

Homage

2009-09-13T12:37:00.003-04:00

i just want to pay homage to some of the greatest orators of our time. if there was a linguistic hall of fame all five would be first ballot inductees

Moses Malone

Magic Johnson, I love Magic Johnson, but he has some real limitations. It is uncanny that he makes his living as a commentator.

"Tony Pawwwwwker, Tony Pawwwker, now you are married to Eva Longorrrrria. How does is feel being married to one o the fiftiest most beautiful people in the world." thats more classic than the baby hook over Bird and McHale in the garden.

Floyd Sr and Roger Mayweather. Somebody ban them from 24-7. They are in the category of Keyshia Cole's fam. Now i dont ever think they will get that bad, but they embarrass Money Mayweather every time they open their mouth.

and the local favorite, Julius Peppers. UNC-Chapel Hill' admissions hit an all-time low when they approved him. I mean the governor had to approve his application. I saw him on the Tarheel coach's weekly wrap up show, in 2000 or so and still am in amazement. Webster's cringes everytime he opens his mouth, his vocal chords flutter which emits sound. very shameful on him, Charlotte, and the entire state of NC.

Ps. oh slack ass slacker, find a damn pulse on the field. you been playing like a fat kid on the Derita Redskins all pre-season. 17 million dollar man, tighten up.

Another gem for ya

2009-08-31T22:56:00.001-04:00

The Foreign Exchange "House Of Cards" Official Music Video from Matt Koza on Vimeo.

I was lost, now I am found

2009-08-31T21:24:00.002-04:00

Yes, my name is "O" and I am an absentee blogger. about 5 months ago, i put down the blog. it wasn't on purpose, it just happened. it was the first thing i put down, but not the last over the this time. and over time, i changed. the glimmer in my eye waned. the enthusiasm in my heart left me to. i stopped seeking new things, experiences, tastes, vices, i had become stale. i looked like myself, maybe even said the right things, even tried to get my "thing" together. and it was harder than i could ever imagine. i lost myself in the process. a life without passion, isn't a life. i learned that the hard way. and everyday, i fight to reclaim what was rightfully mine. so, i am back, reincarnated. so if you still come by this site, i am eternally grateful. i am backed up, therapeutically speaking, so be on the lookout for more cheap laughs and buffoonery to come.

i am here

Paying Homage

2009-05-13T23:35:00.002-04:00

the world was given a gift, 59 years ago. the gift is/was/become Stevie Wonder. so i share with you some of my favorites.

Blind Dedication

2009-04-29T16:27:00.002-04:00

Use Me - Bill Withers
being used must feel good. a person i know, lives this song. and is happy to do it. if you are happy than i am happy. better you than me

Better late than never

2009-04-29T14:26:00.001-04:00

why does murs always do this. he will leak his videos months or even years after the album dropped. better late than never.

Murs completes the trilogy

2009-04-28T01:22:00.002-04:00

my favorite song from the album. the pain and the a-ham sample put this one over the top.

This is how i am feeling right now

2009-04-25T16:58:00.002-04:00

my addition,
why is that you are charging me a $14.99 convenience fee to take my credit card payment over the phone? why must we pay a convenience fee of any kind. shouldn't it be convenient that i pay you anyhow, especially if you want it on time.

Funk Dat

Cheap laugh

2009-04-25T16:18:00.000-04:00

PG PORN: Helpful Bus
its so terrible i had to share it, some of you should enjoy

It don't stop

2009-04-21T16:53:00.003-04:00

The Foreign Exchange feat. Darien Brockington - "Take Off The Blues" from The Foreign Exchange on Vimeo
the concert is over but i can't get it off of my head. i have been waiting for this video since December. In Decemebr Nicolay said Take Off the Blues would be the next singlei finally got it. i am so happy that they are getting some shine, still not as much as they deserve but a step in the right direction. i saw them in Carrboro at the Cat's Cradle on Fri on a cupcake mission. then my peoples, whom i am so proud of came out in numbers in Charlotte on Sunday.

So to Charlotteans, thanks for bringin ya black asses out and allowing yourselves to get blessed. hopefully this wont be the last time. can we represent more than once this year, please.

but in '09, the year of elevating, why does phonte have anthony hamilton's old beard? i'll let him slide though

Special Ed says it best

2009-04-19T14:08:00.001-04:00

you want to know how the game is fucked up, listen to this

Thursdays

2009-04-17T00:00:00.002-04:00

if you are in town, come out to Crave on Thursday nights, Crave is right beside Cans on 5th st. Bring ya black asses!!!!!!

A message to the Boykrew

2009-04-14T12:31:00.002-04:00

This goes out to the Boykrew. 'cakin has been on the rise lately. i just hope you aren't walking to your cars pullin' a Hakeem. whats next, Shai dedications on the Preston Miles Show? lets just keep it in check.

out,
o2

Damn Jakes!

2009-04-03T13:25:00.002-04:00

i got harassed by the pigs today. it took me till i was 29 to get this definitively black experience. i was driving down the highway. i passed a cop on the side of the road. i had slowed down so i was doing close to the speed limit when i passed. about two miles down the road i see the cop coming up behind me. being innocent, i moved to the right lane to let him pass. he followed. then cut on the lights. i obliged. i was a little pissed that i might get a second speeding ticket in 6 months.

he rolls up and asks for my license and registration. and then tells me that when i had passed him i was going 70 mpg, which is the speed limit in Davidson County, NC, but i was only two carlengths behind the truck in front of me. and by law i should be at least 1 carlength per each 10mpg of speed i am driving. now i sincerely tried to not give him the infamous frq sideye. yeah the one that acknowledges how much of a dumbass i really think you are. i don't know if that worked, but he immeadiately said that at most i would get written warning. now, besides a little wasted time, i would take that and not let Jake fuck up a lovely Spring day in NC, one of the few absolutely free things in life i enjoy.

so as i wait on the shoulder besides mile marker 99, i watch as he types on the computer and talks on his walkie talkie about three times. he then returns to the car, hands me my registration (actually bill of sale cause i just bought the car last week) but there is not damn citation. he holds on to my license asks me where i was going, where i was leaving from, and to confirm my address in the most casual way. he asks when i bought the car, now i almost messed up.

now all of my info is in my name. and as a cop he has to know that it takes a while for the dmv to send your plates and registration. so dont trip, flatfooter!!! but he asks again, when did i buy the car. i said two weeks ago because thats when i should have received the car. well due to some slack ass mechanics and lack of open conversation i had to wait a full week before i could pick it up and finalize the deal. so my answer was unclear and for a professional racial profiler from Davidson County, my answers werent totally adding up. but my info is straight so go back to eating donuts and maybe even do some real police work. i retract my earlier statement and tell him the correct date. nice and succint, luckily i had my glasses on and didnt look threatening. he returns my ID and i leave.

i have a policy to never let cops fuck up my days so my blood pressure didnt rise even little bit. cause i'd hate to give them the pleasure of making some trumped up charges and red tape that will at the end cost me time energy and money and maybe some jobs in the future. some of these clowny ass hr reps look at the arrests and make a decision without thinking about convictions or getting any other information. especially cause i have nothing to hide. you gotta do better if you think you can serve the kid.

who are you serving and who are you protecting? i have the right to drive an 02 Jetta that i bought. and drive within the speed limit.

try this help, me somebody some time. wouldnt that be a good idea.

Constables - O.C.

Murs & Roxy

2009-03-27T23:47:00.000-04:00

ooohhh, oooohhhhh (shakes head)...Damn

Coming Soon

2009-03-23T11:31:00.003-04:00

I read in the Charlotte Disturber that a non-stop flight to Rio de Janiero is coming soon to Charlotte. fellas, boykrew, BBE time to stop all this bullshitting and make it happen. Imma get there one day, just hope you are there to experience it with me.

Selfish Promotion

2009-03-23T00:41:00.003-04:00

ladies, i am hitting my stride. test me if you want. DJ Justice thanks for playing my theme song.

Did you see Dennis "Hot Plate" Edwards. He was sharp back in his day. Twenty 25 years and 100 pounds later, i think he still has the same haircut. but the jam is sick still

This is a FRQ PSA

2009-03-17T00:14:00.004-04:00

if your ass is darker than a brown paper bag, you better not ever leave the house without applying ample amounts of lotion. i don't care if your color is due to extreme sunburn or a fluke recessive trait, there is no excuse.

so this goes out to you, with your ashy ass. i see you at work 2 or 3 times a week. i understand you live literally across the street. so you come in laid back in shorts and sandals, even when it is cold. i don't judge. but if you ashy ass corners me again and asks a thousand redundant questions, then repeats a third of them. i will promptly direct you towards the Lubriderm, Vaseline Intesive Care, Jergens, or the Vaseline is in 8 oz jar. if that does not work i will give you precise directions to the beauty supply store off Eastway where my man Muhammad and his brother Omar, will direct you to all of the Palmers and Queen Helene products they carry.

if those products don't work, i am sure i can find someone with some solidified bacon grease that you could work into those ashy ass pores of yours.

now i know you are Indian, Pakistani or another nationality from that area so you may see things a little different. but your calves look like they were battered at Hardee's this morning. and for that there is no excuse, irregardless of where you are from. ashy-ness has no place in public.

A few words for Chris Brown

2009-03-15T00:38:00.001-04:00

i dont know why but this has been on my mind for a while now. we have all heard about chris brown and his domestic violence issues. from rihanna's incessant jealousy to chris's family history and wandering dick, this story is not about to end soon. i was thinking about their career's from this point on for some reason. i will hold my thoughts on rihanna. but chris on the other hand is fucked. he needs a radical makeover now. now, that good boy image is done. over, the cute twinkle in his eye that made the little girls swoon. thats over.

the caterpillar should emerge from the cocoon as a lowdown nasty thug. sold out arenas and TRL are a thing of the past. The Vox and seedy YouTube videos and maybe even a sex tape are the future. he could go on tour with those harmonizing bad boys from Charlotte, Jodeci. and put those dance moves to real use. give the ladies what they really want, pull ladies on the stage and grind on them like its a ladies lock-in. he should come out with Pumps in a Bump 2009. he could be a taller, better Ray J. (oooh that was a low blow, i must admit. market yourself to grown women with an definate sexual edge. find a stripper/porn star and with her have a volatile whitney-bobbi type relationship that will keep your name in the headlines. but every once in a while, show a little compassion or heart just to keep the ladies hooked. so they can get a glimmer of your good boy promise that was once on full display.

I have found the answer

2009-03-04T00:55:00.004-05:00

if you have been reading lately, you should know that my car died about two weeks ago. since then i have become a sophmore in high school again. mom has become a "soccer" mom once again, by either dropping me off at work and even on occassion letting me borrow the truck to take myself. i didnt know how much it meant to me to control my own transportation. but i am very grateful, except for those moments when trapped in the car, i am forced to listen to her hard sugguestions and not feel empowered enough to make a retort. yes, i feel like i am a sophmore in high school yet again. at least then, i had Atliens in my walkman.

so i have been searching for a vehicle and did i mention that i was broke. so i have been scavenging for anything cheap yet reliable. hopefully i have no more incidents and can own the damn thing before it putters out on me. so by next friday, i plan to be rolling in something. as long as its presentable and the heat and ac work, i can work on the rest. but as i look i constantly resist the urge to look at fancy cars, which means anything outside of my price range.

but low and behold, i found a gem that i can a) afford and b) stunt in. for only a few thousand dollars i can be the talk of the town.

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Lambo doors on a 93 Civic, get like me!! I see you hatin'

Red handed

2009-02-26T16:16:00.004-05:00

well it is so true. i am so bad that i cant even hide things too well. over the last week my mother found all of these things in my house. the porno was the worst find. i inadvertently handed it to her. it was in a stack of dvds i was returning to her. well i'm glad my conscience left me a few years ago..........

The game is grimey

2009-02-26T02:29:00.003-05:00

So my brother got his car stolen. it still boggles my mind why one would want to steal a 93 Honda Accord. Sounds pretty senseless. so after a few angry days, his car was found. happy we were for just a few minutes. and by his account, then things became personal. his CD player, tire jack, anti-freeze, febreeze, spare tire, autohammer (pictured above) and all of the change from his coin tray were lifted from him. the most striking thing was the autohammer, a tool given to both of us to save us in the unlikely event that our cars are submerging in water. in one small hit and the glass shatter and an Orr child lives to see another day. so that being said, vengence is in our hearts and we got something for your punk ass.

this more or less sums up how we feel.

Stolen Moments, Pt. 3 - Common
little brother, i am here to take those knees out on whomever that sucka nigga is. i will even bend a few fingers back just for your troubles. you know where to find me, just pick me up at the train station cause i still dont have a car yet.

This bear is out of Hibernation

2009-02-26T02:07:00.003-05:00

i have been going thru a lot lately. and i will get to that later. no car, no internet, no computer, and i forcast no money for the future too. but now i want to reflect on happier things in life.
The CIAA tournament is in town. for all you that dont know, Charlotte will be the party capital for the next few day. you will never see so many negroes in your life. even better is the look on yuppies faces when they come downtown. the look of awe is priceless. so i am coming out of my hibernation for a few days and the B.B.E. will be running rampant through Charlotte. The snaps, drunkeness and buffoonery will be on full display and i will be in the middle of it.

so if you are pretty, thick, and well put together. my eye will be on you. hopefully i have something smooth to say to you. if its not smooth, i just hope it works. my charm is like that, BEWARE. so if you are trying to leave the spot and you feel a slight tug on your elbow and a handsome chocolate brother with a beard looks at you with a sly grin. the ensuing conversation may go down like this...............

When it pours it rains

2009-02-20T12:14:00.002-05:00

so you already read about last week, minus a misadventure or two. well its not over. my computer has a virus and i currently collecting dust with an invoice attached to it. hopefully i will have it by next friday. and this morning, my car died. it is spewing oil and rattling. my mechanic says it sounds like i need a new engine. evidently the lack of oil, has caused the engine to wear against itself. therefore i may need a new engine. that will be another $2000. now, i was planning on getting a new vehicle in '10 anyway. so that has been sped up too. for those who don't know me personally, the calamity that has been the last two weeks is the rarest of occurences. its like seeing the lockness monster and bigfoot on a date. so in a few hours i have resigned myself to the fact that i will be broke for the unforseeable future.

maybe i should make a song, "Less Money, Mo' Problems."

and today i also realized that very few good things in my life have happened because of planning. so i look for the opportunity. i will keep you posted.

I'm a little late

2009-02-11T19:35:00.003-05:00

this is for j dilla. you are missed more than you know. he was around years before i knew him by name, yet his sound had reigned for sometime already. this was the song that put him on my map. i hope you are making tracks up there in the sky.

Eve (Jay Dee Mix) - Spacek f/ J Dilla, Frank & Dan

This week

2009-02-11T11:07:00.006-05:00

1. i lost my id, debit card, and gift cards (target and wal-mart, money is tight i was going to float til payday with those
2. my phone died, luckily i am back up and running. i wouldn't give the samsung glide to my enemy
3. my life got $5000 dollars less interesting. my hours were cut at the job and i assume more hours are on the way. any thought of a future with this job has dried up immediately. this means i am starting my new diet today, p.b. and j and top ramen. and i get no raise. and now more than ever, they are working the dogshit out of my superiors. their job looks a lot less appealing too

4. and my brother got his car stolen

today is only Wednesday. so i have 3.5 more days to take in bad news.

i knew 2009 would be interesting

p.s. i work in retail and let me give you a small economic lesson. retail is the colon of the ecomony. if you put good things into the economy, everything comes out smooth. but if you put 8 yrs of bush-onomics, large industry failures, and widespread hysteria, you get the financial bubbleguts that we are all dealing with right now.

And this is for..........

2009-02-10T00:36:00.002-05:00

I dedicate this to the Broken United FC, all Boykrew and affiliates, and anyone else who can relate. some of you have great, exciting fulfilling careers. i read your blogs and the exciting things you do and experience. i live vicariously through you but i also get a little jealous. i wonder how good could i be if i had a vested interest in what i do. my work ethic is about pride and sustaining. nothing more. all the rest does not concern me once i exit the building.

so for us, dreamers, wanders, even those who are lost. i dedicate this song. i hope we can find an money making niche that we both love and succeed in.

For Da Love Of Da Game - Baby Blak And Pauly Yamz

Thanks St. Valentine

2009-02-09T23:58:00.006-05:00

Valentine's is fast approaching. and if you know me, i have a real disdain for this day. but i will keep that to myself. i would rather get a colonoscopy than deal with this Valentine's garbage. i thought i could weasel my way out of it this year. in advanced i volunteered to work on Valentine's night. that was my fool proof plan of course. then i got into a situation, and we have been talking for a few weeks now and i am not yet convinced this is going somewhere. so of course, she asks about Valentine's. and i tell her i am working that night and i will be off on Monday and Tuesday. she was undeterred, "you dont' get off that late and you can bring your clothes with you to make a quick change." Damn!!! And i am on the phone wondering when i agreed to take her somewhere. so i have a dilemma.

so i was walking in Wal-Mart tonight and i heard a young lady tell her friend that she needs a present that says, will you be my boo? no mushy stuff, no love, no gimmicks, just be my boo and keep it moving.

she is most definitely a kindred spirit. when valentine's comes around, i scramble for something quaint and cheap that keeps me out the doghouse. now, i don't want to do too little, nor do i want to give off a false impression. i need the under $20 gift, that screams Happy V-day/don't get beside yourself, and lets ride this thang out a lil' bit longer. and a creative scheme to keep her content. so i will put this devious mind of mine to work and see what i come up with.

Valentine's is for lovers and if your situation doesn't fit in that category, you are fucked. just like me.

My Inspiration

2009-02-08T18:47:00.003-05:00

i have been on hiatus. i have been trying to stack my chips. '09 is the year of the big come up. one of the things on my list is my furniture. this scavenger furniture has run its course. so i have been i have been decorating lately. yeah, me and decorating in the same sentence. i bet you didn't expect it. at first, i wanted help. i thought i couldn't do it myself. so i asked for help. i pleaded for it. but as soon as help arrived, i realized my mistake. i wasn't clear nor assertive enough when explaining what i wanted.

i had a vision of what i wanted. simple, earth tones, inviting, warm, sexy and swanky. no man's place embodied this better than Marcus from Boomerang. so he inspires me to shoot for the stars. with all that being said,i was too cheap to make a move. but last month my cousin asked if her and 5 of her friends could stay here for the CIAA tournament later this month. I thought about it for a day then accepted. in '09, the year of the big come up, i decided to parlay my tax monies into a new TV and some new furniture. so thats where my energy has been for the last month.

finding a TV was easy. its nice but no quite Martin's Hoshitoshi. but furniture shopping is like plucking my chest hairs one by one, painful. first i didn't know what i wanted. then i had to organize my budget. then i made a decision. luckily i measured it and its too damn big for the house. then i re-evaluated things. next i spent a mind numbing afternoon at Ashley, Rooms to Go, Value City, and Lazy Boy. Followed by Rooms to Go outlet and two local furniture warehouses. and there i found it.

the randy watson set, sexual chocolate. deep, dark, and masculine, hmmm sounds kinda like myself also.

i'm just glad i'm finished. spring is coming so my hibernation is coming to an end.

damn, Eddie Murphy is really responsible for this post. Maybe i'll find a girl who likes to party all the time..........................

The only thing that could keep me calm..............

2009-02-08T14:19:00.003-05:00

..............was a Donnie Hathaway song....
Stolen Moments by Common

this is a big thank you to the elusive Jimmy Ahn, who came back from his sabatical in Illinois bearing gifts. last night he surprised me with this very album. i was was speechless for about half an hour. i was in such a trance i missed a turn looking at the album cover laying on my passenger seat. i am so thankful, i promised him my first born child in repayment. i truly appreciate it.

they don't make them like Hathaway anymore. wow!!!!

just a taste

I Love You More Than Youll Ever Know (LP Version) - Al Kooper

25 random things about me

2009-01-29T02:35:00.003-05:00

1. my brother is my best friend. although there are 7 years between us, the age difference in our behavior is diminishing daily. he might be the older brother soon. im not fully grown yet. i still have some youth to burn
2. i was a military brat, growing up in Maryland, California, Illinois, Alabama and North Carolina. moving when i was young has made it hard to stay still in all situations. i embrace change too easily
3. i speak Spanish fluently, but have been neglecting it for the last 2.5 years. don't trip i still got it. i have to dust it off every so often and pat myself on the back each time. and i do very much enjoy dirty talk in espanol. yeah buddy!!!
4. i didn't post this on facebook because i have a little cousin, whom i didn't want to see this. yeah i plan for this to get a little juicier in a lil' bit. hey, its good to have one person in this world who looks up to you
5. besides, family and friends, about the only thing i will fight over is anyone disrespecting or doubting DJ Premiere as the ultimate hip-hop producer way shape or form. if you don't know who he is look him up
6. i talk to maybe 5 people i went to college with although i still live in the same city. the whole notion of the Brat Pack/St. Elsewhere type relationships really sickens me. when i get around too many of them i feel out of place and very underwhelmed. thats why i you may not have seen me over the last 2 plus years. its business never personnal, is what myk would say
7. i have never fallen in love with a woman who was in love with me at the same time. not saying that they never were, but bad timing is a bitch
8. i dream of retiring to Costa Rica, especially if i never have kids
9. at 29, i really do not see myself married. i close my eyes and the picture is very fuzzy. i tell my mom that i will move to the west coast if the family ever begins to pressure me
10. i lost my virginity in the backseat of my first car at Freedom Park. i still crack a wide smile every time i pass it
11. i got fetish for dimples, freckles, natural hair(yet still long enough to pull)
12. i wonder how it feels to have a job that you love. work is a necessary evil in life. it funds all the things i enjoy
13. i have a motorcycle and have fallen few times. the actual number i wont disclose. but i never thought about giving it up. on accident, i hurt my foot and used a walker at work for two days until it felt better
14. my worst fear is to be that old lame dude at the club in 8 years. ladies, you know the one, no style, no game, no chance
15. i always root for the underdog and get my heartbroken numerous times, the Knicks and the John Starks debacle, the Titans 1 yard shy, Portland losing a 17pt lead in the 4th quarter, and even worse Robert Horry hitting that damn shot, i could go on and lose my good mood
16. i always know more than i show. i like to see people wallow in their own ignorance
17. i really hate talking about myself. this post is almost painful
18. i have a notoriously short attention span with women, one of my worst qualities
19. i think i like being misunderstood
20. misquoting me will raise my blood pressure. i am very sincere about what i say. misquoting me kills all that. and it irks me to no end when a friend of mine does that
21. if you are a woman and i wont argue with you, then you don't mean too much to me at all
22. I'd rather go to a concert and sweat thru my t shirt, get drunk two drinks at a time, and share it with the 80 who came to Amo's that night than go to any of these Buppy parties that spring up all over Charlotte. That stiff, uppity, crowd does not even warrant another shower specific to their overpriced, overhyped, mediocre occassion. i'd rather stay home and watch some free online streaming porn
23. i was depressed for over a year after i returned from studying abroad in Mexico. as i look back on it, i was real lame. there is no excuse to ever give up a year of your life unless you are in a coma. it took me that long to take my head out my ass
24. i am incapable of being subtle. its the reason most women get out of my life.
25. i am almost impervious to bad news. i get over almost everything in less than 36 hours, except for a lady in Greensboro who haunts my dreams every few months, and.......well thats the one

ok, i got one extra

26. i live in the present. my past is under lock and key in most cases. you would never that i was a track star in high school. i state and aau junior olympic medals in a non-descript box in my brother's old room at my parent's house. some know, but i never mention it. plus i am about 225lbs stout, so its not like it shows. but dont trip ladies, my gene pool is loaded. talk to me confidentially about stud rates.

27. i dated a married woman once. i think i liked the sneaking around and crossing lines. crazy enough i stumbled into her husband on facebook a few months back. in charlotte we are separated by only two degrees of separation.

you officially know too much about me

Seriously!

2009-01-29T02:28:00.003-05:00

this is such a cheap laugh. but why? a shag? seriously a shag. i havent seen a shag like this since my cousin's wedding about 6 years ago. at least that guy could sing. his rendition of One in a Million was that fire. Kanye you use audiotune and have a stand-in for the high notes. i know you have been through a lot but get a grip!!!!

Movies You Must See

2009-01-27T01:39:00.003-05:00

Slumdog Millionaire

Gran Torino

The Curious Case of Benjamin Buttons

I love the silence of the trailer.

Sorry Notorious isnt on the list. I really hate to disappoint. I know its trifin but when you already know the ending its kinda hard to get excited about it. plus i cant support Puffy under any circumstances. I heard he was all over this movie as a character and a great contributor. When is he gonna stop riding Biggie's dick. you are irrelevant, i hope the world finally figures it out.

Follow Obama's Lead

2009-01-26T18:40:00.004-05:00

We gotta do better. Seriously, we have a black President. WE can be CLASSY and succeed. Those words ring truer now than ever.

So when I see this coonery times everyday, i get disgusted. Would you ever get your taxes by these clowns? I wouldn't under no circumstances. Bad taste permeates through all things. A yatch, bikini waitresses, those 2008 Miami Vice suits, and i cant forget the hideous Soulja Boy beat and references. i bet they got those suits from Holloway's of N. Tryon. Buy the suit get the left Gator free. And who are they marketing to, 16 years olds who just got their W-2s from Chik-filA. If you are an adult and are a Soulja Boy fan, you should crawl into the first uterus that is your size. You have been grossly miseducated and need to be reprogrammed. Damn, where is your dignity. Real shameful shit.

Influences

2009-01-26T17:47:00.002-05:00

these are the two most influential albums in my life. they have shaped me into the music lover i am. Gangstarr's Daily Operation was a seminal work that introduced me into the underground sound of the Golden Age of Hip-hop. From Guru's smooth delivery accompanied with Premiere's sampling genius. it transformed an impressionable young black child. every album i have bought since, is because of this album. it took me away from some of the miscreant work, if you have been following the blog, you may be familiar with the Misinfluence of Video Jukebox post. Guru and Premiere lead me away from all that foolishness and never allowed me to look back.

isaac hayes' To Be Continued is the second most influential album to me. a deep love for soul music was ignited laying on the floor in the living room. my parents non-mint condition LP was the muse. 'til this day i search for the soul in any type of music. latin, percussion, broken beat, afro-beat, and genres that i cant identify, the soul is what reels me in. seriously i am passionate about that. this is why, i am very particular about the music that i can bear. not even like. when you feel the venom of my words when i speak of wack music worldwide its Isaac's fault. when you take in his mastery the bar is definitely elevated to where few can reach.

now, the most influential non-buys of my life, Vanilla Ice and MC Hammer. despite the popularity and inescapable songs, i had a gut feeling. my boy, JR he bit and bought them both. he even had those patent leather shoes. i wanted a pair of those pants, im glad moms wasn't standing for that bullshit.

what are the most influential artists of albums of your life?

I had a crush on a Steelers Fan

2009-01-21T02:09:00.004-05:00

i know this what you envision when you think of a Steelers fan. Blue collar, hardworking, commoner, 250 plus beer guzzling, hairy chested. not a pretty picture, but give me a little more credit than that. i have made bad female decisions, but even i have to draw the line. last month, i was in atl with the B.B.E. and we watched the Steelers v. Cowboys game at some fancy bowling alley that my man put us on to. so we were in the lounge and at the table across from us was a collection of Steelers and Cowboy fans. Amongst them was a cutie. Petite, sassy, and the most die hard Steelers fan ever. She was upset at the refs, gloating, waving her Terrible Towel and talking big time shit. and as the game moved on, she just became mesmerizing. as i looked at her i had visions of a lifetime of tailgating. i had on my throwback Greg Lloyd jersey. I was on the grill in a makeshift tent in the parking lot, throwing down. i had on thermals and foot warmers with a stout drink in my hand. and we even had three kids, equipped in full Steelers gear. skull caps with that damn fuzzy ball at the top, jerseys and the Tomlin like Bubblegoose. A great life it will be. at the tail end, i was even arguing the merits of the 3-4 defense and how Bradshaw is one of the top 5 quarterbacks ever. very much out of character. stranger things can happen.

all of my allegiance to the hometown panthers was in serious jeopardy.

Get On the Bus

2009-01-17T17:14:00.001-05:00

i guess i am overwhelmed by the upcoming , inauguration. i know people traveling to dc by planes, trains,skateboards, scooters and hoverounds just for this historic event which made me think of the last time such a wave of darkness descended on DC and the following clip. Big Shout out to pdheartbreak of youtube for posting this. i really 'preciate it.

Between Evan Sr and Pop, they tore the bus down

since i cant go, i feel its only right that i leave with a verse expressing my dismay.

Shabuya, Sha-Sha-Shabuya Roll Call
Shabuya, Sha-Sha-Shabuya Roll Call
Shabuya, Sha-Sha-Shabuya Roll Call

My name is "O"
yeah
And I can't go
yeah
No off time plus
I'm low on dough
Roll Call
Shabuya, Sha-Sha-Shabuya Roll Call
Shabuya, Sha-Sha-Shabuya Roll Call
Shabuya, Sha-Sha-Shabuya Roll Call